It was all in vain………
I painted a rainbow for a colour blind.
It was all in vain………
I painted a rainbow for a colour blind.
Me & my beloved ,we are sweethearts. We long for each other.
His heart appears to me a prisoner of substance, standing like a slave before his wealth, robbed of the beauty of life. A victim of man made earthly laws ,a lost human heart imprissioned in man’s skeleton tied with chains of earthly desires.
As my beloved is enticed by substance, in this beautiful world created by God ,anything that awakens my love & desire is a disgrace. Everything of goodness that my heart crave is unconsiderable according to man made conceptions.
Substance is our cruel enemy, who brings us misery. She watches over us like a guard & follow us wherever we go.
I sing for my beloved the song of wisdom, he doesn’t listen for substance has concealed his ears with quaking sound of metal riches.
I call for him to sing like a bird ,soar freely here n’ there in the fields and enjoy the bounty of life. But I found him as a beast that’s burdened so heavily with gold that’s breaking his back. He’s a slave to fickle wealth and purchased friends.
When the silence rules & nature sleeps at the twilight ,I call him but the fear of tomorrow overshadow his thoughts of love. So he responds not. He’s amused with shimmering objects that blinded his eyes and heart to life’s secrets. His soul is diverted to a temporary self-gratification.
Substantial things deadens a man without suffering, love awakens him with cheerful pains.
He craves for me & calls me from among the heaps of his riches of gold & silver and of ivory & ebony. But he’ll only find me in the house of simplicity , built by God, in the city of affection. For his huge building is a narrow cell for me , n’ I can’t worship material things for that’s not what I seek on earth n’ not what fills my heart
I want to reach my beloved like a ray of sun tearing apart the dark clouds of excessiveness & greed. I want to belong to him. & I want him to belong to me.
He says, “I know you so well that I can easily tell by even the way you breathe, that what’s going on with you. I can tell what you are about to say, before you actually say it.”
Well so true my love. You know me so well, and I’m glad that I have found you. Because I’ve always been troubled in expressing things through words, and end up messing up the things. I never imagined someone could know me so well the way you do. I’m truly blessed to have you honestly. But even after all this I have something to say, ‘It’s not necessary that if you know the person completely, you understand every thought of him as well.’ I’m sorry love but there are times when just tell what’s in my mind, however, can’t really understand how that makes me feel. I don’t want you to know me 100%, that’s not fair even, but yes I do want you to understand me even if you don’t know what I’m up to, believe in me when I’m trying my level best to put my feelings in words. That’s all, that makes a relationship worth, ‘Understanding someone, not just knowing them’ and believe these both are different things.
Let’s grow our hearts and minds larger, rather than our mouths.
You see a turning point in your life ,but ignore it cuz you confuse a poisonous relation with love. Love is not poisonous.
You see others experiencing the same what you are going through. You listen to the stories of how someone ended up with a toxic person, and is at misery. You become restless ,coz somewhere deep inside your heart knows ,that if you didn’t get rid of this so called love, which is actually not. You’ll be in this miserable condition.
But putting aside your pride you carry on, coz you want to trust the one you love, you don’t want to give up on him. You want to believe in yourself, and in both of you. That’s a good characteristics of your personality. But has nothing to do with the person ,who only want you for their own benefits.
How can you expect a man who lies to himself everyday ,who believes in his own lies, to be honest with you.. sometimes people try to destroy you bit by bit coz they recognise your power, n’ they don’t want it to exist.
It’s important to recognise the toxic people n’ get rid of them before they completely destroy you.
They are the people who are always offended with the truth, and who have mastered to play the victim or innocent in all aspects. People who behave differently in public to gain a kind ,nice man’s image.
Whenever you find yourself the victim of others bitterness, smallness, or insecurities , you should know that it’s the time to leave. Don’t fear that you’ll lose the great love of your life. You just have a parasite that’s feeding on you until it depletes you & move on. This is not healthy, it’s toxic & definitely not love.
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When your value system is not clear , getting what you want can be a bigger tragedy.
“this sickening is not of the flesh,
She’s dying of a broken heart.”
You meet someone and make connection so quickly as if the whole universe has been conspiring for you two to meet, and fell for each other in the very moment you start conversation. You two feel blessed to have each other. All those relationship goals, cute lovey-dovey things, seem like have just been inspired by you two. As the time passes, love remains the same but misunderstandings and worldly things start overpowering that love. You try a lot to keep the love alive yet one day you both fed up trying, deciding to leave each other for their good. You can’t say the love wasn’t pure, maybe the will to keep that wasn’t enough. If you have this love, never let the circumstances break you down. Little time and patience can mend everything. Make sure if one is breaking or giving up trying, its other’s responsibility to keep the things going no matter how hard it gets.
I looked at stars in the night sky, n’ I wonder m just looking at the past. It doesn’t exists anymore. I end up overwhelmed, feeling if am made up of the dust of one of the stars am staring at.